i don’t think that i have ever felt quite as betrayed…

There are two options-

1. knew it would hurt me, WANTED it to … I cannot understand why you choose to hurt someone unless you’ve made up your mind about that person not belonging in a significant role in your life
2. figured it might hurt me but the want outweighed that pesky little detail…and that too seems to say “to me, you are insignificant“

It wasn’t done out in the open, maybe that is why I feel so betrayed…seems the plan would be to have the new one in place before any feelings are hurt…not that they seem to matter.

And all this while, I have been thinking I was chosen for the job. That it had more to do with “togetherness” and with “us” than it did “whose looks better”

But I learn most things the hard way and this is no exception.

Kelly feels sad today.